cautious_knight | Filtered away from Pakistan and Wolfram like whoa; voice

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What should one take into consideration when planning a date? What would usually be expected, and what is possible in this place?

...I... [There's a short pause, and his voice is a bit stronger when he speaks again, but still trmbling slightly.] ...for a first date.

Poland? [And now there clearly is some worry in it.] Where are you? Can we talk for a moment?

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Has someone seen Minsk as of lately?

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[Poland blinks, then blushes slightly. So close, Lithuania, and yet so, so far...]

It's--no, you like, haven't--I'm totally a big kid, Liet, it's not like I need someone around me every minute of the day or anything...!

[Should he just... pretend like that's all of what's wrong?]

But I haven't been around enough, have I? Or talked about her too much?

[Not convincing enough, Poland.]

Please tell me what it is, and I'll try to fix it.

[Frustrated, because he doesn't want to talk about this]

Oh, my God, Liet, I said it's no big deal! Okay?!

[He doesn't want to admit that it bothers him when he talks about her, because that's a step away from admitting that it bothers him so much because it's like rubbing his face in the knowledge that his love won't ever be reciprocated because Liet likes girls;;;;]

[He winces and closes his eyes, his arms going limp around Poland, his voice slightly scared when he speaks. The blond doesn't get this kind of frustration very often, and when he does it has never, ever been directed at Lithuania before. And losing Poland would really be the last thing that he'd want.]

I'm sorry - I'll try to fix it, I'll really try.

Fix what? You're like, not doing anything wrong...

[Which doesn't make him sound much less unhappy.]

[He shakes his head helplessly, trying to look the other nation in the eye.]

I don't know... But I don't want to hurt you.

[Stubbornly] When did I say you were hurting me?

[...Yeah, that's his pride talking.]

[He's lying there perfectly limp and unmoving, only looking at Poland.]

You weren't yourself. [And it was my fault.]

[Looks down at Liet, and feels guilty. He doesn't want to make him make that face, no matter how miserable Liet's making him. With a sigh, he lies down next to him, pulling him into a careful hug]

You like, always worry too much...

[Shaking his head slightly and then pressing it against the other nation's shoulder.]

I don't want you to be hurt. Never.

[Strokes Liet's hair, and kisses the top of his head softly]

[Sounding a little tired] I'm totally fine. Shhh...

I'm sorry...

[Your icon. His arms around Poland tighten and he practically clings for once, scared to hav edone Poland wrong enough to lose him.]

[Yeah, this icon. This is what Liet does when Poland flips out, so he figures it should probably work on him, right?]

Shh. You always freak about the little things, Liet...

[And okay, he's probably more worried than Liet for once, and yes, Liet has been hurting him, but since he absolutely CAN'T tell him why, he might as well pretend it's okay, right?]

You're not angry at me?

[He calms down, relaxing in the blond's arms.]

...No. I'm like, not mad.

[At least, he doesn't think he is. Just... hurt. And he can't say so, and it's frustrating.]

Good.

If...if I ever do anything to really upset you, please tell me. I don't want to make you sad.

[Okay. Okay, Poland, come on, you might not be able to tell him you like him, but you can do this... He told Wolfram he would a while ago, and he'd hate to be proven wrong.]

I... uh... [His grip on Liet loosens a little, and he turns his head away into the pillows]

Like, in that case... IreallylikedwearingthatdresscauseitlookedgoodanditfeltrightandIthinkitstotallyunfairtosayIshouldn'tdoitagaincauseElainesaiditwasokayandshedtotallyknowandstuffsoIthinkitssuperlameforyoutoactlikeIshouldn'twearthestuffIwannawear!

[...to spare you having to read that, it's "I really liked wearing that dress, 'cause it looked good and it felt right, and I think it's totally unfair to say I shouldn't do it again, 'cause Elaine said it was okay (and she'd totally know and stuff), so it's super-lame for you to act like I shouldn't wear the stuff I wanna wear!"]

[Liet looks up and stares for a moment. This really came totally out of the nothing for him, so it takes some moments for him to wrap his mind around that concept.]

...you... you wanted to?

[Poland refuses to look at him, and tries to hide his blush behind a pillow.]

Duh, Liet, did you like, see anyone there making me do it? I... might have kind of tried it a couple of times at home, when nobody was around to catch me, too...

[OHGAWD, why is he talking about this it's such a bad idea Liet's gonna hate him forever ohgodohgodohgod ;;;;;;]

[Starting to turn red at the memory of that one time when he saw male!Poland in a dress.]

I thought... I thought you were still wearing it or- or...

[He doesn't really know, just that he knew that it was wrong at that Poland would never do something that the church wasn't okay with. His next words are a bit helpless, trying to understand but just sooooo confused]

But you said... the church says...

I've... I've like, talked to a lot of people here who say the church is gonna take it back, though! You know, like... kind of like how there's all this stuff in Leviticus and the Old Testament that we don't actually do 'cause Jesus said that stuff was written for the Jews and doesn't really apply to us anymore? Like... Like you know, saying crop rotation and eating certain food and cutting your hair was bad, and it was cool to sell your daughters into slavery and junk? I mean... the only place I can think of that talks about wearing girls' clothes was kinda in that same part of Leviticus...

And... I mean, I don't wanna just listen to what people tell me, but if the Bible doesn't really say it's wrong, and the priests are gonna change their minds and say it's okay after all, and... It feels good and stuff, not like something bad, and it's not like it hurts anyone...

You've always known more about those things than me... I mean, if you think that it is alright with the church I won't tell you that it is not. But...

[but if Poland wears it he can't stop thinking about him as if he was a girl. ~~Not quite, but he doesn't realize that yet.~~]

...what do you mean by "everyone says"? Why did everyone know that... and...

But what?

Oh. Uhhh... The communicator... kindasorta turned itself on a little while before you came home that time, and like... I figured people would be mad at me, but everybody I talked to was all "no, it's totally cool, you look cute" and stuff! Like... I don't think all of them really count, 'cause not all of them were Christian, but I know America is, and Elaine--I mean, she's like, got wings, you know? And she just told me there was no reason to be mad at me or scold me, and nobody freaked out except you. Which is why I don't think they're lying when they say it's not a big deal in the future or whatever.

[Rolls over and stares at the ceiling, trying very hard to not think about Poland in a dress. Which is really hard while they are basically talking about that.]

I'm sorry, I... I just hadn't seen you like that before exceptforwhenyouwereagirl and I didn't know that you liked it so much and will- do you want to always wear dresses?

[It could be worse, Liet. You could be thinking of Poland in the outfits he'll think are cute 600 years from now. Gasp, he's showing his ankles! ...And his arms, knees, midriff, and most of his thighs!]

Well, duh, of course not all the time! I mean, I have wicked cute guy clothes, and I still like them, it's just... I wanna wear other stuff, too. Sometimes.

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