[And Lithuania is here as well, and doesn't do anything for a little while. His voice is quiet, nearly solemn, when he speaks, hands clasped nervously, not looking at Poland. He doesn't want to think about where this will take them, if it will take them anywhere... as long as it doesn't bring them firther apart, he'd alright with it. And he will try anything for this to not destroy what they have, no matter how it turns out.]
I... I didn't know what to think when I realized what you had told me, and when... Everyone here seems to think differently about certain things, like what a boy is allowed to wear, or whom you are allowed to like. Like that, I mean. And I would have wanted to ask you about it, because you have been Christian so much longer than me and know God's ways a lot better, but... but I couldn't ask you about that. I knew that it was wrong, but that priest said that it was alright, and I wanted to ask you but... But it was about you and... [Breathe. Breathe. Calm.]
...because I had that dream again, that dream where we meet in the fields, that one that I told you about before. But this time, you... we... [Blushes, nestling with the hem of his shirt.] kissed, and... and I reacted to it, like... like a healthy male shouldn't. Not if the other one is male too.
And I don't know anymore how I feel about you, how I'm supposed to feel, but... but I don't want to lose you. I want you to be happy.
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Date: 2010-04-19 04:43 am (UTC)I... I didn't know what to think when I realized what you had told me, and when... Everyone here seems to think differently about certain things, like what a boy is allowed to wear, or whom you are allowed to like. Like that, I mean. And I would have wanted to ask you about it, because you have been Christian so much longer than me and know God's ways a lot better, but... but I couldn't ask you about that. I knew that it was wrong, but that priest said that it was alright, and I wanted to ask you but... But it was about you and... [Breathe. Breathe. Calm.]
...because I had that dream again, that dream where we meet in the fields, that one that I told you about before. But this time, you... we... [Blushes, nestling with the hem of his shirt.] kissed, and... and I reacted to it, like... like a healthy male shouldn't. Not if the other one is male too.
And I don't know anymore how I feel about you, how I'm supposed to feel, but... but I don't want to lose you. I want you to be happy.