cautious_knight

[He blushes more at that]

Yeah... I like, guess that's true...

...Um. If, like. If it's seriously not against what God wants, I... I totally don't care who else thinks badly of me. I know it's supposed to be sick and weird and stuff, but like, it's always felt totally natural to like you the way I do, even when I've been way too scared of you hating me forever to say anything about it...

[A thought occurs to him, and being Poland, he expresses it immediately.] ...I guess I still shouldn't be talking that way, though... I mean, you've like, got Pakistan, and--and that's normal, and I shouldn't want-- um. [Trails off, awkwardly. He got ahead of himself, didn't he? Liet's got a girlfriend, so he still doesn't have a chance, right?]

I could never hate you! [And then he blushes awkwardly and looks to the side, unable to really answer that.] I talked to her and she- she knew what you felt like and I'm not sure what she wants me to do, but she... she said that you were more important to me than her, because we've known each other longer and that I should talk to you...

[He hates this situations. Both nations are very dear to him, and he doesn't want to see either one of them unhappy.] But I would never hate you, I couldn't, I... I just don't know what to do.

[He pulls back a little, but takes Liet's hand]

...I think she and I like, both want the same thing, but we totally can't both have it. Not... not all of it. But part of what I want--and I think she like, probably feels the same way--is for you to do what will make you happy. What... what feels the most true to yourself. [He's trembling a little, because that's really hard for him to say--he's just not used to placing others above his own wants, and when he wants something so badly, it's even more difficult to do.]

I don't... I'm like, not gonna push. I don't really know if it's right or wrong, either, but I'm not gonna push you either way, 'cause like... it's up to you. It's your choice. I totally wish I could make it easier for you, but...

[He's trembling himself and now leans forward, pulling Poland closer, in a gesture that means to comfort but is just as comforting to himself. Taking care of others has always been his way of coping with bad situations.] We'll find a way. I don't know now but... I'll find a way. And I don't want to lose either one of you. [Soothingly pets Poland's hair, pressing a soft, innocent kiss to the top of the other nation's head. Not any different from what he would do normally, but... he has to force himself to act normal now. But if he doesn't... he doesn't want things to change.] This place really makes everything a lot more complicated.

[Poland pulls back again, frowning a bit.]

You like, can't have us both, Liet. I mean--I mean, you can have us both as friends, but you can't just not choose!

I-I did not mean that! [Staring down at Poland, pretty scandalized.] I meant... You are both very dear to me, and I want to stay friends with both of you, no matter whom I choose.

[He shakes his head slightly.] I would have never thought that I'd one day have to decide something like this.

[Oh, okay. Now that that's cleared up, he supposes that hugs are acceptable, and curls up against Liet again.]

...Still not pushing, but like. It'll be super-hard for me to be around you if you pick her over me. I don't know for how long, but like... yeah...

I'll keep that in mind, yes? Just... would-would you mind making up with Pakistan first?

[Hugging Poland back, closing his eyes. No matter how awkward it is right now, it just feels so much better having Poland than not having him.]

[Nods slightly.]

...I like, didn't mean to fight with her again, anyway...

[Yeah, Poland agrees with this. He has had no cuddles for a week, and that was just... wrong and unhappy :<]

[Moar cuddles <3]

Good. I... would it be alright if you and me and her all talked about this to ...to find a solution that we can all live with?

...That like, sounds really embarrassing...

I know, but it is important for all of us. I don't want to exclude anyone.

...[Clings a little more]

Gawd, fine...

[Liet laughs softly and hugs Poland once more tightly before he lets go.]

Come. It's time to make dinner, don't you think?

...'Kay. Sounds good.

[The rest of the day and evening passes almost normal, almost like it always is. Just... that both parties are trying to keep it that. To not mention what they talked about before. And when they go to bed, Lithuania just lies there, eyes closed but wide awake. He has willed his breath to slow down, his body to relax, but he can't sleep, so he opens his eyes again after a while and looks over at Poland.]

[Poland looks, for all intents and purposes, like he's sleeping, but Liet can probably tell the difference. His breathing is just a little too shallow, his eyes closed just a little too tight. He's relaxed more and more over the course of the day, but evidently, he's still nervous enough for it to keep him up.]

[He calls out, softly, his words a mere whisper. If Poland was asleep, it shouldn't wake him up.] Poland? Are you awake?

[A little drowsily, Poland opens his eyes]

Mmhm. What's up?

Thought so... Sleep. I'm here, I'll watch over you. It will be alright.

[Bites his lip a little, and tries to sulk instead of looking worried. It doesn't quite work.]

I'm like, almost 500, Liet. I don't need to be looked after all the time...

...You like, won't go away?

No, I won't go away.

[He moves a bit, shifting until he lies next to Poland and can pet his hair.]

I would never leave you, as long as you want me here.

So like... If I fall asleep, you're not gonna be gone when I wake up?

[...Okay. That's good... Feeling Liet be near him is calming right now, so he curls up and lets himself be petted, wrapping his arms around Liet's waist.]

[And it feels good to know Poland close, with him. Good that he seems to be as okay as he can be in the current situation... probably better than he'S been in a while.]

I won't be gone. I won't leave the room until you wake up.

[Well, still a little jittery, and trying to get over feeling like Liet's going to just up and leave him forever now that he knows what he does... But yes, better than he's been.]

Mmh... 'Kays... [Nuzzles!]

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