...I think she and I like, both want the same thing, but we totally can't both have it. Not... not all of it. But part of what I want--and I think she like, probably feels the same way--is for you to do what will make you happy. What... what feels the most true to yourself. [He's trembling a little, because that's really hard for him to say--he's just not used to placing others above his own wants, and when he wants something so badly, it's even more difficult to do.]
I don't... I'm like, not gonna push. I don't really know if it's right or wrong, either, but I'm not gonna push you either way, 'cause like... it's up to you. It's your choice. I totally wish I could make it easier for you, but...
[He's trembling himself and now leans forward, pulling Poland closer, in a gesture that means to comfort but is just as comforting to himself. Taking care of others has always been his way of coping with bad situations.] We'll find a way. I don't know now but... I'll find a way. And I don't want to lose either one of you. [Soothingly pets Poland's hair, pressing a soft, innocent kiss to the top of the other nation's head. Not any different from what he would do normally, but... he has to force himself to act normal now. But if he doesn't... he doesn't want things to change.] This place really makes everything a lot more complicated.
I-I did not mean that! [Staring down at Poland, pretty scandalized.] I meant... You are both very dear to me, and I want to stay friends with both of you, no matter whom I choose.
[He shakes his head slightly.] I would have never thought that I'd one day have to decide something like this.
[The rest of the day and evening passes almost normal, almost like it always is. Just... that both parties are trying to keep it that. To not mention what they talked about before. And when they go to bed, Lithuania just lies there, eyes closed but wide awake. He has willed his breath to slow down, his body to relax, but he can't sleep, so he opens his eyes again after a while and looks over at Poland.]
[Poland looks, for all intents and purposes, like he's sleeping, but Liet can probably tell the difference. His breathing is just a little too shallow, his eyes closed just a little too tight. He's relaxed more and more over the course of the day, but evidently, he's still nervous enough for it to keep him up.]
So like... If I fall asleep, you're not gonna be gone when I wake up?
[...Okay. That's good... Feeling Liet be near him is calming right now, so he curls up and lets himself be petted, wrapping his arms around Liet's waist.]
[And it feels good to know Poland close, with him. Good that he seems to be as okay as he can be in the current situation... probably better than he'S been in a while.]
I won't be gone. I won't leave the room until you wake up.
[Well, still a little jittery, and trying to get over feeling like Liet's going to just up and leave him forever now that he knows what he does... But yes, better than he's been.]
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Date: 2010-04-19 11:26 am (UTC)...I think she and I like, both want the same thing, but we totally can't both have it. Not... not all of it. But part of what I want--and I think she like, probably feels the same way--is for you to do what will make you happy. What... what feels the most true to yourself. [He's trembling a little, because that's really hard for him to say--he's just not used to placing others above his own wants, and when he wants something so badly, it's even more difficult to do.]
I don't... I'm like, not gonna push. I don't really know if it's right or wrong, either, but I'm not gonna push you either way, 'cause like... it's up to you. It's your choice. I totally wish I could make it easier for you, but...
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Date: 2010-04-19 11:57 am (UTC)[Action]
Date: 2010-04-19 12:02 pm (UTC)You like, can't have us both, Liet. I mean--I mean, you can have us both as friends, but you can't just not choose!
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Date: 2010-04-19 12:18 pm (UTC)[He shakes his head slightly.] I would have never thought that I'd one day have to decide something like this.
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Date: 2010-04-19 12:24 pm (UTC)...Still not pushing, but like. It'll be super-hard for me to be around you if you pick her over me. I don't know for how long, but like... yeah...
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Date: 2010-04-19 12:34 pm (UTC)[Hugging Poland back, closing his eyes. No matter how awkward it is right now, it just feels so much better having Poland than not having him.]
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Date: 2010-04-19 12:41 pm (UTC)...I like, didn't mean to fight with her again, anyway...
[Yeah, Poland agrees with this. He has had no cuddles for a week, and that was just... wrong and unhappy :<]
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Date: 2010-04-19 12:44 pm (UTC)Good. I... would it be alright if you and me and her all talked about this to ...to find a solution that we can all live with?
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Date: 2010-04-19 05:15 pm (UTC)Gawd, fine...
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Date: 2010-04-19 05:24 pm (UTC)Come. It's time to make dinner, don't you think?
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Date: 2010-04-19 07:52 pm (UTC)Mmhm. What's up?
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Date: 2010-04-19 08:03 pm (UTC)[Action]
Date: 2010-04-19 08:48 pm (UTC)I'm like, almost 500, Liet. I don't need to be looked after all the time...
...You like, won't go away?
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Date: 2010-04-20 07:57 am (UTC)[He moves a bit, shifting until he lies next to Poland and can pet his hair.]
I would never leave you, as long as you want me here.
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Date: 2010-04-20 12:20 pm (UTC)[...Okay. That's good... Feeling Liet be near him is calming right now, so he curls up and lets himself be petted, wrapping his arms around Liet's waist.]
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Date: 2010-04-20 01:19 pm (UTC)I won't be gone. I won't leave the room until you wake up.
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Date: 2010-04-20 01:56 pm (UTC)Mmh... 'Kays... [Nuzzles!]
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