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[cautious_knight]

Can anyone help me find Poland? He doesn't answer my messages, and I really need to talk to him.

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[watchful-knight.livejournal.com]

It's usually Lithuania. Only Poland uses something different.

..You don't like your mother?

[rebelroses.livejournal.com]

Ah, alright. I'll stick to Lithuania, then.

[Rose shook her head, looking to the air as if Janine was actually there. She looked at it in disgust, folding her arms to her chest.]

I guess I can't say I hate my mom or anything, but... we butt heads all the time. I really can't think of her as my "mother". Did you know, as soon as I was old enough for St.Vladimirs, she sent me off right away so she didn't have to watch over me. It's like she just threw me off to the side and made other people take care of me. What kind of mother does that shit to their own child?

[watchful-knight.livejournal.com]

Maybe she just wanted you to go to a good school?

[rebelroses.livejournal.com]

I doubt that all it is. She's too busy with her job to even care for me. That's the reason why she did it. She was too busy doing her job to even give me a second glance. The first moment she got to get rid of that annoyance was St.Vladimirs.

[watchful-knight.livejournal.com]

...Have you talked to her about that?

[rebelroses.livejournal.com]

I have, but if it's between my mom and I, it's not going to end pretty. We've gotten so used to the way we treat each other that all we do is argue anymore.

[watchful-knight.livejournal.com]

...Have you tried to ask someone for help with it?

[rebelroses.livejournal.com]

No. I guess I never really thought about fixing it.

[If she was updated after Blood Promise, her mom and her would have somewhat made up so xD but she's still at the end of Frost Bite and before Blood Promise.]

[watchful-knight.livejournal.com]

Why?

[This thought is really strange to him. Parents and family are very important, not only socially but also financially... especially for girls but not limited to them.]

[rebelroses.livejournal.com]

I guess I'm just so used to not seeing her or talking to her that I never really gave it much thought. I saw her at school for the first time in... what was it.... I can't even remember. Maybe... 12 years? That sounds off, but something like that.

That didn't go well. She was only there to talk about how successful she was or whatever. It pissed me off that she came for that purpose and not even a good reason. All the others were so impressed and like, "Wow you're so cool". It made me sick. We kind started yelling back and forth and Demitri finally dragged me out of class.

[watchful-knight.livejournal.com]

Maybe she didn't know what else to talk about and wanted you to know here better, and to know you better herself?

[rebelroses.livejournal.com]

Ah, maybe. I guess that didn't come to mind, either... But, it would have been nice to get a call or a letter saying, "Hey I'm still alive. How are you?" or something. In any case, even if I had the slightest chance to see her again, I don't know what I would say that wouldn't be something to argue about.

[watchful-knight.livejournal.com]

Maybe not meet her alone, but have a friend or someone both of you know to help with the talking?

[rebelroses.livejournal.com]

Yeah... that might help. Maybe just to have a friend there to slap me if I got out of hand.

[Ironically, she laughed slightly at herself. She just imagined how it would be if Lissa were with her that last time.]

[watchful-knight.livejournal.com]

That happens often?

[rebelroses.livejournal.com]

No, but may help with other things. I'm not sure, as I just figured it out talking about my mother and I, but maybe I'm not good at confronting someone. I mean, I always avoided it, but maybe that's my problem. Maybe if I had someone there to kick me back out there when I tried to get out of it... maybe then things would be better? I didn't even tell my best friend that I was in love with my tutor until after he was killed. That lasted for about ... 2-3 years.

[watchful-knight.livejournal.com]

Sometimes it really is better to talk to someone about things... even if it is only your priest. Sometimes it makes things clearer. ...Sometimes more confusing.

[rebelroses.livejournal.com]

Yeah... Though I can't completely agree to the priest comment. Don't mind me,though. But... Thank you, Lithuania.

[watchful-knight.livejournal.com]

I'm glad that I could be of some help.

[rebelroses.livejournal.com]

Yeah, it helps. I'm trying to get my own life here. Back home, I had to practically live for Lissa because I'm going to be her guardian... but that meant I couldn't do almost anything. So, maybe it would be nice to start over here.

[watchful-knight.livejournal.com]

Her guardian? Is she a princess?

[rebelroses.livejournal.com]

Yeah, she's the last of her line, but... she is a princess.

[watchful-knight.livejournal.com]

What line of what country?

[rebelroses.livejournal.com]

Well.. it's kind of complicated. It's more in terms of family. In St.Vladimirs, it's mostly royal moroi and people, dhampers, who guard them. Lissa is the last Dragomir. Her family died in a car accident. I was somehow able to survive along with Lissa

[watchful-knight.livejournal.com]

Is her life tied to yours?